It was a Monday afternoon. I was looking forward to having the afternoon to catch up on all my daily tasks. But when you’re undergoing fertility treatment you’re at the mercy of your cycle. I went to the loo. There was blood. Shit I thought. I’m doing this already. You see, for the uninitiated amongst…
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Planning Your Second Round Of Fertility Treatment
It was supposed to be a lovely day. With expectations like that I guess it can only go wrong. We were having a day out – me, the boy and nanny. As always, it started with us running for the bus. We were going to see a ‘first ballet show’, I wanted my son to…
Planning Fertility Treatment: The Wobble
I guess everyone has it when you go down this solo mum by choice path. The wobble. Am I really sure this is the right decision for me? Can I really do this? That pause between one failed cycle and the wait to start the next. It let’s all sorts of emotions out of the…
Trying Again: Donor Conception
So it didn’t work. It was a long shot after all. Wanting to be one of the lucky few. Oh, what I would give to have been one of those. I really believed it was going to happen. That positive outlook and hope that is supposed to help us, proving to be my own worst enemy…
Take The Damn Pregnancy Test
So much for saying I wasn’t going to bother doing a test, let alone an early one. After all, they cost a fortune. I’m all about the pound shop tests £1 for three tests that work as good as any expensive brand, what’s there not to love about them? Yet somehow, exactly one week since the IUI,…
Still Waiting To Take The Pregnancy Test
When I started writing about this journey I thought perhaps I’d write a couple of posts about the process and maybe one once I got pregnant. This is now my twelfth post and I’ve not even taken my first pregnancy test yet. I’m not trying to eek this journey out, it’s just that it turns out it’s…
Solo Mum Waiting To Take A Pregnancy Test
There are two weeks between insemination and taking a pregnancy test. This unit of measurement glosses over all that entails though; the 14 days; the 336 hours; the 20, 160 minutes; the 1, 209, 600 seconds. Each and every single one of those is felt in excruciating detail when you’re in the midst of the…
Single Mum By Choice: IUI Insemination Day
So today is the day. Or is it? I’m sat here waiting for the bus to work (cycling was a bit much after yesterday and the joys I have in store for me today). Anyway, here I am, worrying that I’ve got the day wrong, maybe they meant yesterday at 1.30pm. I checked my email and…
Solo Mum By Choice: Booking My Insemination Appointment
I (finally) got my positive ovulation test yesterday morning. I’d been expecting it today or tomorrow but it still came as a surprise. Or perhaps it was just the nerves disguised as surprise. I had to wait over two hours before the clinic was open to call them though. I felt pretty tense. I tried about ten…
Single Mum By Choice: Preparing For Insemination (IUI)
Preparing for insemination – it doesn’t conjure up the most beautiful of images does it? I’m sure most of us have had different ‘preparation’ experiences over the years. I can just about remember my first time fumbling around on my boyfriends bed. Then there was the easy rolling over in the morning ‘preparations’ which were always my favourite.…