Content warning…. Talks about pain, depression and suicidal thoughts. It’s suicide prevention awareness week, or it was. I’ve been aware of it out there but I’ve not been with it enough to say anything. And no doubt I’m still not. But something needs to be said given we keep hearing how depression and mental health…
Posts Tagged with mental health
Inside my mind
I’ve struggled with my mental health for about four years now. Quite possibly I was struggling with it before but just managed it much, much better. Over that time some people have made me feel like I should get over it. That I’m not a strong enough woman if I can’t cope with what life…
Take The Damn Pregnancy Test
So much for saying I wasn’t going to bother doing a test, let alone an early one. After all, they cost a fortune. I’m all about the pound shop tests £1 for three tests that work as good as any expensive brand, what’s there not to love about them? Yet somehow, exactly one week since the IUI,…
Solo Mum Waiting To Take A Pregnancy Test
There are two weeks between insemination and taking a pregnancy test. This unit of measurement glosses over all that entails though; the 14 days; the 336 hours; the 20, 160 minutes; the 1, 209, 600 seconds. Each and every single one of those is felt in excruciating detail when you’re in the midst of the…
Everyone Hates Me
“Everyone hates me,” I sobbed through the phone. It was 11pm on Sunday evening and I’d called my mum because, let’s face it, who else can you call at 11pm when you’re a blubbering mess*. “Don’t be stupid” she said. It didn’t help. As I write this I want to say I didn’t used to…
When My Ex Threatened Court
Sometimes things move so quickly with my ex that I struggle to know what’s happening. In the last six weeks my ex threatened court, tried to be daddy of the year and, most recently, disappeared off the face of the earth. Let’s start at the beginning. My ex was out of the country for a few weeks…
When Your Husband Suffers Psychosis
Trigger warning – this post talks in detail about psychosis and mental health. It may be upsetting for people who have experienced psychosis or seen others suffer. The blogs I have read on mental illness tend to be clean and tidy. The moral is clear – goodness wins out in the end. I can only assume that an unspoken,…
My Depression Diagnosis: Getting Help In Real Time
Six weeks ago I received a depression diagnosis, signed off work and given a prescription for prozac. This is my story so far. The first few days Last night I took the pill. Washed it back with a glass of water. Three seconds later I was panicking. Freaking out. Losing it. I texted a friend, confirmed I was just…
Some Non-Expert Tips For Suicide Prevention
On Thursday night I learned that we are coming to the end of suicide prevention, as well as pre- and post-natal depression awareness, week. I wanted – no needed – to write something. I had to share my thoughts on this topic. A topic which I never imagined I would have any insight into, but have somehow…
My Divorce Is a Sign of Strength
If we don’t know personally, then we’ve surely all heard how marriage is hard work, especially once children enter the mix. There are so many posts about it; beautiful ones about the struggles and joys of married life,* and others which, quite frankly, border on the offensive – emphasising how nowadays people aren’t cut out for the hard work…